I would like to share a song which crossed my mind.
連受苦都甜美 我每日捱著 不睬不理
連自尊都忘記 跌到極麻木 只好相信
慢慢的心淡 付清 賬單
I still remember when her keep repeating with the song and said something that I don’t understand because I was still effing dumbo in relationship, of course still single that time. But now, I understand and I’ve recall of her emo.
This girl which was a very best friend and close classmate of mine; I’ve no seen her for years after I’ve graduated. I still remember how sad she was when she told me that her heart like burning and very… very disheartened like a empty tank. I don’t know how it’s feels like that time because I don’t even tried or have a relationship before. All I can do was smile and say: “It’s okay… you’ll meet some one better.”
Years proven, the pictures prove that I’m right… she’s a happy girl now. I feels great whenever I looks at her pictures, the graduation pictures, the smiling face, the sweet smile while hugging her boy, the travelling pictures and so on. She looks great and different than the girl I met, sitting on the bed, emo-ing. And I know, I would never see that face again…
Sometimes, we just have to walk thru our life our journey, to see and realize. I feels bad that I’ve made a lot of mistakes. So now, I should always bare in mind: THINK before hurting yourself badly.
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