Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How do be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday
waiting for you

Darling, don’t be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday
Waiting for you

Darling, don’t be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more

One step closer

One step closer

I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darling, don’t be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more

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I know it isn’t an emo song but I can’t really handle my emoness right now. I just feels very upset listens to it. Felt emo deep from the inside…

Sometimes, I’d admire for those girls that willing to say “Yes, I do.”
“Yes, I’m happy.”
“Yes, I’m sad.”
“Yes, I’m loved.”
“Yes, I’ve a good life.”
“Yes, I’m doing good.”
“Yes, I love you.”
“Yes, I do hate you.”
“Yes, I feels great I’ve you in my life.”
“Yes, you made me smile.”
“Yes, I’m getting marry with the one who treat me the best.”
“Yes, I’ve nothing to worry because you’re always be there for me.”
“Yes, is because I have you.”
“Yes, I’m brave enough because you’re here.”
“Yes, we are meant to each other…”

“I’ve died everyday waiting for you, I’ll be brave and I’m not afraid because I’m with you.”

I know, I should not have such fantasy mind, do wake up for the reality. There’s no one will be there, you yourself is the reason to be brave not somebody. I hate when you’re the reason why I fail… I hate I failed because of you!! How to be brave when there’s always a person who fails you?

I hate boundaries, no matter how many steps closer, I will still not be there because you’re not willing to open up. Things will never been right if no one willing to cooperate. I don’t love you a thousand more, I hate you instead.

by Bendan.

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