17.6.13
I missed the old me which I love to express myself here, in my blog but now I don’t really doing it anymore because when things changed, it change. Like, things goes publicize you won’t want things to be so obvious, so easy to understand by others, yes~ not honest, probably a journal has became an excuse… things continues with other purposes.
Am I?
Today ww is so gonna be Today’s Point of View.
It was just 3 or 4hours ago, I slammed the car’s door. I screamed and tears break down, I totally know what’s in my mind, hit my head heavily to the steering wheel, hahaha~ I didn’t really hear the head knocking sounds instead the knocking sounds from my car window. The security guard standing beside gancheong-ness knocking at my car window, I think he probably gonna call the police or how… piff!!
No worries, I leave the screaming out loud back behind at the parking lot. Feels better after an hour drive home, seriously. I’m clear with the direction thou, probably, hopefully. Actually no idea since when I already started feeling not feeling well which makes me feels so down and negative la, just can’t get rid of it, I do really need a break off. #depression maybe a lil? But better not. :)
Oh yeah, gonna do a record here before I forgot. I bumped into someone car this morning because I fell asleep, not the first time thou. I’m not proud of it la silly, d’oh… It’s just, I know how dangerous to sleep and drive but I just can’t help. I’m not that person that lack of rest still can drive one, cis~ everyone got their limit okay? At least I know I can’t do it without enough sleep.
遠處海港傳來陣陣船笛
我一直飄零到被你揀起
如今望著反映窗戶玻璃
有個我陌生又熟悉
I can Smile a little more
Sing a little more
Feel a little more
全因為你
說好了要為幸福 一天天地練習
練習 Laugh a little more
Love myself a little more
要學會更加善待我自己
為你我變成了 Better me
If you are my instagram followers, you might saw this. I doodled it and put this whole thing into the fridge as reservation!! Muahahahaha!! Okays, cut the craps, if you’ve instagram, do follow me kay? Here ♥
The Cheese Tart, I’m saying!! One of my favourite snack now which my aunt bought from Kuantan for mum’s birthday!! Teeheee… Mum is a November babe, actual date is tomorrow thou. Ops, I reveal too much, did I?
Last night I was kinda emo, I just feels ain’t right so I dug some time, a little alone time to chill. Ahemm, yes or no? I feels happy looking at the doodling so I decided to make it an illus version. Sometimes, I tends to shiok sendiri.
Hate my procrastination, hate myself more. Was drafting yesterday about my next post which leads me clicking on the old posting of mine, found myself used to be so simple and naive, don’t mention about emo rantings… others actually filled with the me I like.
They doesn’t filled with a lot of me with camwhore pichas, but I guess with heart. ♥
Happiness doesn’t need to be luxury whatever me is chasing now, for me I used to be very happy because life filled with fantasy and crazy. But reality is reality, there’s still dreams that I need to chase for, that’s why one must grows; gonna experience, lose and lost, pain and let go, lastly gain and achieve.
I’ve got this special drafting which I done one or two months ago, lol it’s actually during KLCC’s bookfair and that’s the moment I’ve got heartbroken then hanged out like everyday. #draggyqueen
